maandag, januari 30, 2006
Sad & Lost
IÂm sad and lost today. And tired and menstruating too, so that does explain it somewhat. But still I hate feeling like this. I try to fight it by making something (anybody here that read the tales Alvin Maker?) . I need to fight the black force. But Im not in a creative mood. I start things and then lose confidence or make to many mistakes and feel worse. Usually I end up with a clean bit of house. I can clean when depressed.. Today I canÂt even do that since IÂm working..(most of the time that is.. ) I woke 3 times for baby girlirl tonight and onÃ§ for the son who had a wet bed. I loved to hear his voice though, I dreamed they were all dead tonight husband and kids. Oh not a good day but still a 100.0 tes better than my dreams. It will go away it always does and for now chocolate and tea..